Saudade

by Katarina Boudreaux

What was once loved

the sound of

paper crushed

between fingers

 

puppets in half light

 

a mirror with

two bodies

 

red the color

of my hair

dyed in candlelight

 

water how flow

moves in circles

 

the letters of

my name

spelled through

moist lips

 

empty how full

one is in silence

 

too much dark

to live in the light

 

why can’t it be

me

 

let me have

one more drink

what else besides loss.

 

Katarina Boudreaux is a writer, musician, composer, tango dancer, and teacher — a shaper of word, sound, and mind. She returned to New Orleans after circuitous journeying. Her chapbook “Anatomy Lessons” is available from Flutter Press. Her play “Awake at 4:30” is a finalist in the 2016 Tennessee Williams Festival.